1 Oct 12, Mon

Do you know that when Mummy was young, or rather during my schooling time, 1 Oct is the much awaited Children's Day! =)

On this day, we will not need to go to school and the good thing is that prior to this day, the school will have some form of celebrations/ performances and the teachers may give some little gifts to us kids. =)

But recently, or rather a couple of years back, the date for Children's Day had been changed to the 1st Friday of October along with the change in Teacher's Day from 1 Sep to the 1st Friday of Sep.


We should be 7 weeks already but I am still unable to locate your heartbeat on the fetal doppler that I have at home. Guess we can only see you again and observe how you grow in our next appointment. Hopefully Everything will be good and you are growing well inside Mummy.

I am hoping that I am one of the lucky ones who do not experience much pregnancy discomforts but at the same time, it kinda left Mummy slightly unsettled as I am unable to feel you. Guess I will only relax when we manage to see you during the next scan and also when am in the 2nd and 3rd trimester when I can feel you.

I Love You! Grow Well Inside and Looking Forward to Seeing A Healthy Crying You in 8 months time! =)

2nd day of Daddy's Reservist/ 2nd day of Mummy and Sister staying over at Po Po's place

Let's start off the day with a I Love You! =)

Today is the second day whereby Mummy and Sister is bunking over at Po Po's place. The reason being your Daddy's away for Reservist and there is no way that Mummy can handle your Sister, my bag along the walk to MRT Station, MRT ride, Bus ride followed by a long walk to office.

Hence, we adopted what we did last year, to stay over at Po Po's place and then book the transport at Po Po's place. (Note: There is no private transport to office from our home..)

The cost of the transport had increased by quite a fair bit from last year's. Last year, we were charged $80 and your Sister and Mummy were given a seat to share. It is only when someone actually is not taking the transport for that day that we will get an extra seat.

This time round, the transport cost that was quoted as $120. Oh well, there is no way that Mummy can reject this, as what Daddy said. Reason being, no matter what, we will need the transport. -_-

So Mummy started packing up for the stay over and below is the list of items that we brought over:
- IKEA High Chair with tray table
- 1 luggage full of Mummy's clothes and your Sister's clothes
- Stroller
- Water bottles
- Milk powder
- Milk bottle etc

Mummy is counting down the days to meeting you again via the ultrasound on 20 Oct 12, that seems like a long way to go. Never mind, I shall try out the doppler again over the weekend and hope that I can find your heartbeat soon. =)

By the way, you are very funny and cute, do you know that? Yesterday, Mummy was still telling Po Po that I am glad that you and your Sister are both so nice to Mummy during the pregnancy etc, that I did not feel much symptoms. =p In return, your Po Po replied with a 'Choy Choy', i.e touchwood as she was afraid that after I said this, I may start experience all the symptoms of pregnancy etc. =p

True enough, that very night, the extreme fatigue returned again, such that Mummy was feeling real real real tired by 9 pm. Imagine, 9 pm! That is real early for my bedtime. As your Daddy popped over to Po Po's house (they were allowed to return home and book in the next morning for this whole week), Mummy tried my best to stay awake till past 9 pm but in the end, succumbed to the sleep bug and concussed at 9+ pm, leaving your Sister in the care of your Daddy. -_-


I have a feeling that I will be experiencing the same fatigue tonight again. =p

1st glimpse of you in your home aka sac in Mummy's warm and comfy tummy on 22 Sep 12, Sat =)

Finally, the long awaited appointment has arrived!! =)

It has been such a long wait.. The reason for the wait is that we discovered your presence at around 4 weeks, on 4 Sep 12 and the gynae would definitely say that you are too too small to be seen on their screen and that the only way to know that you are growing would be via blood test, i.e taking of the HCG Beta levels over 2 consecutive days as in a healthy pregnancy, the Beta HCG should double every 2 days. =)

However, Mummy has a more economical way of testing this. Heh heh, to allay my fears and to make myself less stress over the constant worrying on whether are you alright in there, while waiting for the appointment, I made sure that I peed on the HPT daily every morning! =) It has become a ritual for me for that week. Haha..

I only stopped the peeing on the HPT when there is no darkening of the test line, guess that is the maximum HCG that the test kit can take. =p Occasionally, I will test on the OPK too as there had been articles online saying that the HCG will turn a OPK positive too and positive it turned! Strong positive some more! Haha, it feels real good to know that you are growing well inside.

Well, fast forward to 22 Sep 12, we skipped breakfast that day in order to make it in time for our Appointment at 10:00 am at TLC Clinic. Mummy has studied the net and chose Dr Paul Tseng as the gynae that will look after the both of us, Mummy and You, this time round. Reason being, I really hope that I will be able to give birth to you naturally as I had an emergency c-sect for your Sister due to no dilation.

Apparently, after discussing on the things to look out for when attempting Vaginal Birth After C-sect (VBAC), the condition is that you cannot grow to too big a size and Durian is a total No-no. =(

Next up is what we had been waiting for for so long! The ultrasound scan! =) A pity that Dr Tseng does not want to do a Vaginal Scan (V-Scan) as for such young pregnancy, V Scan would be able to offer a better glimpse of you. Nevertheless, we proceeded with the abdominal scan and saw the sac at the right place, i.e my uterus! =)

All those worrying that we might have an ectopic (implantation at the tubes etc, anywhere outside the uterus) or scar ectopic (implantation at the previous c-sect scar; read about this only recently when one Mummy shared her experience in the forum) was finally allayed and I then heaved a huge sigh of relief. Phew.

The sac measured 11.92mm at 6w0d and gynae scheduled the next appointment on 20 Oct 12, Saturday. Mummy is really hoping fervently that we can see you growing healthily and happily with a strong heartbeat in time to come! =)

The visit had helped to remove some of the fears but still left me with some as the basics of a baby, i.e the fetal pole and the yolk is nowhere to be seen in the scan. However, the gynae is pretty nonchalant about it and states that you are still too young. Well, I guess I can only trust the gynae and believe in you now! I will have and keep the faith! =)


In the meanwhile, Mummy shall continue using the doppler system to try to detect your heartbeat as once there is a heartbeat detected, it can then be confirmed that the fetal pole and the yolk is definitely there for to nourish you and allow you to grow! =)

Well, ahem, the doppler is said to be meant from 12 weeks on, but I just can't wait and tried it the night itself (in fact, Mummy already dug out the doppler the night before and was frantically trying to locate your heartbeat, but it is really a tough job as you are just too small now and have so so so much room to move inside. =p) and true enough, Mummy still can't find your heartbeat. Well nevermind, I shall try not to stress myself out and will use the doppler again next week, when you will be nearing week 7. =)

Oh, there is something that Mummy wants to tell you. I have read online that Vitamin B Complex is good and hence, had bought some from the Pharmacy, but then some other websites offered contradicting information, stating that it is best not to be consumed during pregnancy whereas some other website said to consume in moderation.

Confused, I made a check with the gynae and he gave the Okay! =) So Mummy is currently taking the folic acid as well as the Vitamin B pills religiously every morning! =) Hope that you will be good, grow well and see you next year, happy and kicking, a strong baby in May 2013! =)

Mummy Loves You! Daddy Loves You! Sister Loves You too! =x

Small Orange Dot

Little Baby, Mummy is wondering what are you doing inside and if you are fine and happy inside? Know the reason why Mummy is asking? Today, I spotted another orange dot, which is a bit watery but the color is discernible.

This is the second time that I have spotted odd colored discharge when Mummy is carrying you. I know that discharge is relatively common during pregnancy but I think I had none with your sister which is why this is pretty worrying. I just hope that Everything with you is fine and well. After all, we will be meeting for the first time this coming Saturday, 22 Sep 12 via the ultrasound scan.

Mummy would like to say 'I Love You' here and Thank You for appearing or rather letting us know of your presence in Sep 12, as per our agreement. You are our little sweetie and We Love You.

Now, the next BIG STEP would be for you to stay comfortably well and snug inside Mummy and then see you in May 13! =) Looking forward to having you, our little bundle of joy crying and kicking in our arms. =)

Another dreary Monday

Today's another Monday again and Mummy is feeling tired out.

Totally not looking forward to going to work. Sigh, there are many things to handle in the office and it seems so daunting but still, if I do not attend to it today, my colleague will need to take over and that would be added load on her and also if I do not work today, the work will still need to be cleared upon my return. -_-

Time now is 11:12 am and you gave Mummy a scare just now! ='(

I wiped and saw some watery discharge which looks pinkish/orange/yellowish and it totally freaked me out. What is happening?? I have no feel and can't view what's inside but I surely hope that you are well and good inside. =(

I don't know if I am scaring myself or what as now I tend to examine all the minute details and with this keen observation, it can totally freak one out.

The 1st appointment with the gynae would be this coming Saturday when you would be around 6 weeks, should I pop by to another gynae tonight after work, for a scan and to make sure that you are alright or should I try to compose myself and wait it out till the appointment on Saturday?

In the meanwhile, I will try to stay composed and calm myself down (easier said than done.. sadly..) and I will have a decision soon once my mind is cleared of all the messy thoughts.

I have read online that stress may also contribute to some pinkish discharge, else it could be the uterus expansion or the embryo burrowing in further etc. The reasons behind this are many and I have no way to know for sure, but if it is stress that is causing it, I have find the source of the stress and get it over and done with.

I must stay and remain a Happy Mummy, for you, I will.

Our Weekends, 15th ~ 16th Sep 12

Well, Mummy thinks that I should let you know this, how our days were spent as you are part of us now and should know how our lives are etc.

15 Sep 12, Saturday is the last day of the 7th lunar month as well as the birthday of a close friend of Mummy.

Breakfast is standard @ MacDonald's, much to the delight of your sister. We had 'conveniently' forgot to give her a second serving of milk (only had one when she woke up in the morning) which lead to her good appetite for breakfast. =)

Else, if she were to have her 2nd helping of milk, she will definitely reject breakfast. Well, we are glad that she had a hearty breakfast that day.

After the breakfast, we went to pick up some small parcels at Singpost and then headed off home to rest. Your sister slept for around 2 hours from 12 noon to 2+ pm and Mummy stayed in the room with her while your Uncle aka Your Daddy's Brother came over to play soccer on the PS3 together.

We then got ourselves prepared to go out after your Uncle left and then hurried off downstairs to offer prayers as this is the last day of the 7th lunar month. It is really no joke shuttling between the prayers and having to keep a lookout for where your sister is. Being the young toddler that she is (@ only 2 years 10 months), she really loves to wander around. We really freaked out when we can't spot her anywhere, turned out she was standing behind the columns nearby. -_-" If only we can deposit her somewhere while we make prayers, but sigh, we have no such luck and MIL is totally of no help or rather not interested to help out at all.

Enough of those disappointing updates, let's move on to our program after that. We headed off to Tiong Bahru Plaza where Mummy got a cake for Aunty MF and a party hat to add to the happy occasion. Later Daddy drove us to Vivo City and park the car there before boarding onto colleague's car as they have free entry into Sentosa island and we are planning to meet first too, prior to meeting the other peeps. =)

Over @ Sentosa USS, we met up with another couple, i.e MF's secondary school friend and then sprung a surprise birthday party for MF! =)

Unfolding of Event
Plan: The 4 of us will split into twos and will approach the birthday girl from 2 directions. Each pax will sing a line from the Happy Birthday song.
The first pax will hold the cake, the 1st pax opposite will hold the candle and the lighter, the 2nd pax will hand MF the party hat while the last pax will pass the birthday girl the knife for the cake! =)

What actually happened
Well, things doesn't really go according to plan but it still fulfilled the aim of giving MF a surprise! =) MF's hb was actually trying to get her attention focused on a particular direction. After which, the 4 of us gathered together and then sang her a Birthday song. So when MF turned around after hearing the Birthday song, she saw the 4 friends standing behind her, one holding a cake, another a candle and lighter, third a party hat and fourth, the knife for the cake.

Surprise her we did! She was pretty touched when she saw us and I must say we attracted some attention from the visitors to USS.

Later on, we went over to Carrefour's closing down sale at Suntec City together with Mummy's colleague and scooped up 8 bottles of the distilled water, in preparation of our Taiwan trip early next year.

16 Sep 12, Sunday
We lazed around at home until 11+am before moving out for lunch @ a foodcourt near PoPo's place. Following lunch, we popped by to PoPo's place where your sister entertained your GongGong during the time that we were there.

After PoPo prepared herself, we left for OG Orchard where they are having a annual 20% sale and their card renewal session. The total damage was $385 and each membership application requires $75 minimal spending, so for our total spend, we can apply for a total of 5 cards! =)

The 5 cards goes to Daddy, Mummy, PoPo, Ah Yi and Xiao Jiu.

We reached there at around 2+pm and only left around 7+pm.

Our loot comprises of the following:
- 4 pants for Mummy ( $29 *3 pairs & $39.90 *1 pair)
- Playdoh dough (2 packs of 10 containers for $18)
- Playdoh mini set (2 sets for $9)
- A pair for shoes for Mummy @ $29
- Dora panties 6 pcs @ $13.90 for your Sister
- Bobdog panties 3 pcs @ $3.90 for your Sister
- 2 shirts and a pants @ $10 for you
- 2 pairs of Dora shoes for your Sister (a pair @ $15 and a pair @ $15.90)

=)

心痛，我需要为了你多照顾自己

你知道吗？常常被你没办法控制的事件或人物绑住是多么的辛苦啊！

可以的话，我真得很希望我能打从心里的放下，但是说得比做得容易。

小宝宝，妈妈真的好担心你哦，希望最近的伤心，心情的起伏不定不会剥夺你在妈妈体内的快乐成长。

我爱你，为了你，我应该为你多负起多点责任。让自己快乐点，不被烦事拉倒。

或许，我应该为你许下些承诺如下：
1。需要保持心情愉快才能有个快乐的宝宝
2。多多照顾自己才能实现我自己的梦想，就是自然生产
3。不被烦事困扰
4。上下班要规划的好好，不有任何的瓜葛。下班了，就不再像上班事，要忘了所有的同事
5。记得与在妈妈肚子里的宝宝沟通，让彼此安心及舒缓急躁的心情
6。每天说一句我爱你 =）

我们爱你哦，爸爸妈妈的小宝宝！

Stress Management

Well, this week is not a good one for Mummy.

Somehow I got agitated very easily, whereby I will be angry one moment and crankily happy the next. Sigh, guess this is what pregnancy does to one.

But seriously, you are affecting Mummy in such cute and strange ways than your Sister. Be it good or bad, I will accept all these as best as I can.

Basically, Mummy has been coming to work for the whole of this week, unsettled. Not sure of what will happen, considering that I gave my very true feedback to the Big Boss only to have all refuted with his/ her perception that everything is well and good and that the offending person is Goddess.

Since I can't fight it, I might as well accept it, but the worse thing is that I was given the tall order of making the first step to initiate a heart to heart discussion with the other person. This has been the cause of my stress for the past few days and I really do not wish to carry on this burden anymore,  so I searched online on Stress Management and found some good suggestions.

Let's hope that something good will come out of the 'forced' discussion.

12 dpo on 4 Sep 12 and A Surprise!! =)

Well, Mummy tested for your presence over the weekend on 1 Sep 12, 9 dpo and it was a blank at the test line, only the control line was there, strikingly bold. =(

The only consolation that I can give myself is that maybe it is still early, that is why, we are unable to detect you on the HPT. But Mummy had a weird feel, like somehow I know that you are inside me, but I am afraid to believe and to throw myself into that belief because if  my thoughts of you are purely my make-believe or my strong desire for you, it would be real saddening when the flow comes as expected on 9 Sep 12, Sunday.

The odds are relatively low, considering the following:
- that we had only managed to BD on 23 Aug 12 and 25 Aug 12 itself

Chance Booster:
- Ovulation occurred relatively early on CD 16
- BD session on 23 Aug 12 once the OPK turned positive. Assuming the spermies need 12 hours to go through the capacitation process and that ovulation will occur 12 hours to 36 hours after the positive surge and then lives for another 12 hours to 24 hours, we may still have a shot here
- I had diligently taken the TCM, went for Accupuncture, boiled Ba Zhen Soup and took 益母草etc to build up my body to create a conducive environment for your implantation and growth

Chance Downer:
- For spermies to go through the capacitation process, the conducive cervical mucus is very important to coat them with this protective covering for the swim upwards

Well, after testing negative on 9 dpo, I had decided to skip testing until 14 dpo, i.e 6 Sep 12, but what prompted me to take the test earlier on 12 dpo was due to your Daddy's comical mix-up.

Here goes:
Mummy wanted to re-test again on Monday morning but was afraid of seeing yet another negative and then wasting another test kit along the way, so what I did was to re-use the test kit for 1 Sep 12. When the results is yet another negative, I proceeded to throw away all the OPKs and HPTs that were used for this cycle (meant to keep them initially to take photos of the many of them when we get pregnant this cycle) and keeping only the positive OPK that reminds me of our try for this cycle.

Your Daddy, while bathing on Monday night, spotted the positive OPK and came out excitedly after his shower and nudged a sleepy Mummy, saying 'Your HPT turned positive and it is a very strong line!' I was skeptical and replied 'Are you sure? What color is the HPT? (the OPK is characterized by a green tip at the top while the HPT is blue)' Guess your Daddy's reply? 'Blue'.

That got Mummy very excited and all that I can think was that the HPT that I re-used turned positive!! I got out of bed and took a look at the test kit. How disappointing was it. The color tip was green, i.e that was the OPK and not the HPT. Daddy came over and of course I questioned him on this and his reply was that the packaging was blue (the test kit was resting on its opened packaging which had a big blue box in the middle) and your Daddy had mistaken that as blue!! -_-

Disappointed, I got back to bed but with my curiosity aroused, I decided to test the next morning. What came out came as a shock, instead of the usual white base, there was a faint test line there!! =)

Mummy then rushed out of the bathroom and told Daddy to come quick. He got out of bed immediately and saw the faint line too! My eyes are not playing tricks on me! =) But as the test kit was from the old batch and expiring in Sep 12, Daddy said to use other test kit to verify the results, which we then did. The line on Clearblue came out immediately albeit faint (but still darker than the other 2 test kit) while the HPT from the new batch came up slower and fainter.

This is indeed a pleasant surprise! =) What a great way to brighten up our morning! I am carrying you inside my tummy and there you will stay, comfortable, warm and snug for the next 9 months before coming out crying and meeting your parents and your sister for the first time, somewhere in May 13. =)