Tuesday, 31 July 2012
11 dpo... 1 Aug 12, Wednesday
As the title said, today is 11 dpo already.
Cannot resist testing yet again.. Guess what's the result? No sign of you yet again. By 11 dpo, 76% of the pregnant mummies would have know of the existence of the little beanie inside, but not for us, I guess.
Even though we hope to hear from you soon and the repeated negative can get us so down, but we remain hopeful still. After all, it is this hope that keeps us going, as long as you don't crush this hope of ours on the date of the expected flow.
I am not sure how long we can take this repeated 'rejection' from you. What is it that we are doing that is not enough to warrant your presence inside the welcoming womb? Now I really start to wonder if I will ever get to realise my dream of having 3 kids or more, if Number 2 does not want to come, how can I have Number 3 and more?
As age catches up on us, the chance of us ever meeting you is diminished.
Monday, 30 July 2012
10 days past ovulation (dpo)
Today is 10 dpo..
Unlike the past few days, whereby we tested almost every other day wanting to know of your presence earlier but all of which told a different story, we did not do any further test on the HPT since 30 Jul 12, Monday.
This is because, the nearer we are to the end of the 2 weeks wait, the more the results will be finalised. So meaning, if we were to get a negative now, there will be no hope for us to cling on to that it may have been a false negative.
If you want to know the probability that the results (data collated from pregnant ladies) will be finalised by the respective days past ovulation, you can refer to the website countdowntopregnancy which Mummy had been frequenting.
So, when we tested on the following dates:
28 Jul 12, Saturday: 7 dpo (20.7% would have tested positive with 79.3% getting false negative)
29 Jul 12, Sunday: 8 dpo (29.7% would have tested positive with 70.3% getting false negative)
30 Jul 12, Monday: 9 dpo (46% would have tested positive with 54% getting false negative)
Thus, when we failed to detect your presence on 7, 8 and 9 dpo, we can still hold on to the 54% chance. But if we were to test on 10 dpo, the chance dropped to only 36.3% if we were to test negative again.
31 Jul 12, Tuesday: 10 dpo (63.7% would have tested positive with 36.3% getting false negative)
Do you understand our fear? That after all our efforts, everything may come to naught and with the next cycle, we will have to work at it again, just for a shot of having you.
The estimated due date of the next flow will be on 6 Aug 12, Monday. If there is still no flow by then, we will be almost sure that we have you where we wanted you to be, in your cosy nest for the next 9 months and into our warm and caring arms after the 9 months nurturing in my tummy!Wish Us Luck and looking forward to seeing you soon!
6 Aug 12, Monday: 16 dpo (87.8% would have tested positive with 12.2% getting false negative)
I would hope we will have happy news to share with you in your blog on 6 Aug 12, Monday.
Unlike the past few days, whereby we tested almost every other day wanting to know of your presence earlier but all of which told a different story, we did not do any further test on the HPT since 30 Jul 12, Monday.
This is because, the nearer we are to the end of the 2 weeks wait, the more the results will be finalised. So meaning, if we were to get a negative now, there will be no hope for us to cling on to that it may have been a false negative.
If you want to know the probability that the results (data collated from pregnant ladies) will be finalised by the respective days past ovulation, you can refer to the website countdowntopregnancy which Mummy had been frequenting.
So, when we tested on the following dates:
28 Jul 12, Saturday: 7 dpo (20.7% would have tested positive with 79.3% getting false negative)
29 Jul 12, Sunday: 8 dpo (29.7% would have tested positive with 70.3% getting false negative)
30 Jul 12, Monday: 9 dpo (46% would have tested positive with 54% getting false negative)
Thus, when we failed to detect your presence on 7, 8 and 9 dpo, we can still hold on to the 54% chance. But if we were to test on 10 dpo, the chance dropped to only 36.3% if we were to test negative again.
31 Jul 12, Tuesday: 10 dpo (63.7% would have tested positive with 36.3% getting false negative)
Do you understand our fear? That after all our efforts, everything may come to naught and with the next cycle, we will have to work at it again, just for a shot of having you.
The estimated due date of the next flow will be on 6 Aug 12, Monday. If there is still no flow by then, we will be almost sure that we have you where we wanted you to be, in your cosy nest for the next 9 months and into our warm and caring arms after the 9 months nurturing in my tummy!Wish Us Luck and looking forward to seeing you soon!
6 Aug 12, Monday: 16 dpo (87.8% would have tested positive with 12.2% getting false negative)
I would hope we will have happy news to share with you in your blog on 6 Aug 12, Monday.
Charting of Basal Body Temperature...
Do you know that, for you, Mummy had signed up for TCM Accupuncture, took the nasty tasting TCM, bought tons of OPK (100s, 100s followed by 200s) and even invested in a pre -loved Clearblue Fertility Monitor (costing $300+ in Watsons/ Guardian; $200+ in online shops, such as Gmarket aka Qoo10, Tiny-shop etc) and the Fertility Monitor Test Sticks (costing $85+ for a box of 20 test sticks in Watsons/ Guardian).
Sunday, 29 July 2012
Today: 30 Jul 12, Monday (Part II)
After leaving the clinic, we were still discussing on where to go and Mummy then made a request to Daddy to go for the TCM Accupuncture in the hope that it can help the follicle mature in time as in view of the condition (irregular menses and all), a chance like this is hard to come by.
Also, since the gynae is willing to do follicular tracking on Saturday, it would be good to have the follicle mature within the set time frame as Mummy is really not willing to give this chance up. Not this chance nor any other chance. Chance once given, is to be taken with our All and not to be given up.
So off to the TCM Accupuncture we go.
Also, since the gynae is willing to do follicular tracking on Saturday, it would be good to have the follicle mature within the set time frame as Mummy is really not willing to give this chance up. Not this chance nor any other chance. Chance once given, is to be taken with our All and not to be given up.
So off to the TCM Accupuncture we go.
Today: 30 Jul 12, Monday (Part I)
Let's recap on what have we done for our Jul 12 cycle.
Daddy and your Sister accompanied Mummy to a gynae on 19 Jul 12, Thursday for follicular tracking or rather an ultrasound with consultation to understand how best we can get you soon.
The waiting time was okay as we were pre-empted in advance that it may take up to 2 hours. So we wandered around the place and then walked to Cineleisure for breakfast.
Daddy ordered Bak Kut Teh for us while your Sister thrive on her milk, refusing to take the rice and all maybe due to her bad cold and blocked nose, I supposed.
After our breakfast, we slowly strolled back to the clinic and waited patiently for our turn.
Finally our turn came and below was what transpired:
Gyn: Sure, but as with all fertility consultations, I will need to find out more information from you. How old are you, Mummy?
Mum: Okay, sure. I am 31 years old while he is 34 years old. Basically, we have been trying for our second child since Dec 11 but there was no news yet. I have monitored using the Ovulation Predictor Kit (OPK) diligently and identified the Luteinizing Hormone (LH) Surge and then proceeded to carry out our activity but there was no news yet. I have the PCOS giving me irregular menses but that has regularised after the birth of our first child but when we started on our trying to conceive (TTC) journey, the menstrual cycle turned haywire again.
Mummy then proceed to the chair besides the ultrasound machine while Daddy carried your Sister and stood nearby.
With that and some other scan on the uterues and the lining (7mm), the ultrasound scan ended and we all moved back to the consultation area.
Mum: So, if the follicle were to mature, can we have the HCG jab to trigger the release of the egg, i.e ovulation?
Gyn: (counting on the table calendar) By this Saturday or Sunday, it should be ovulated as by then, you will be at CD 26 or CD 27 already.
Mum: Okay, so if the follicle is mature then, can we have the HCG shot to trigger ovulation?
Gyn: That can be done but the follicle needs to mature first. Let me see, so you will come back on 21 Jul 12, Saturday for a scanning and we will discuss further.
Mum: Okay, but in the event that if this cycle does not work out, what are our options?
Gyn: I can put you on clomid, which will help mature the eggs.
Mum: But I read online that there are side effects of clomid, increase risk of cancer and also that there is a maximum number of times that one can take clomid. Plus, it tends to thin out the uterine lining right? My uterine lining is not thick now and as per what my TCM Doctor said, with my light menses flow, the uterine lining may not be thick enough to support implantation, so if I were to take clomid, it may solve one problem but end up creating another.
Gyn: Do you trust online stuffs? But Clomid does tend to thin out the lining. However, we can put you on another medication in conjunction with Clomid to work on the thinning uterine lining caused by Clomid. But that can be discussed later. In the meanwhile, we can schedule another ultrasound scan for your this coming Saturday and we will see how.
Mum: Okay, Thanks.
With that, the nurse proceeded to set us another appointment on 21 Jul 12, Saturday for a scanning. As the appointments are full, she set me in as a walk-in customer and advised that I arrive at around 12 noon this coming Saturday.
After settling the appointment, Daddy made payment for the bill and we left the clinic.
Daddy and your Sister accompanied Mummy to a gynae on 19 Jul 12, Thursday for follicular tracking or rather an ultrasound with consultation to understand how best we can get you soon.
The waiting time was okay as we were pre-empted in advance that it may take up to 2 hours. So we wandered around the place and then walked to Cineleisure for breakfast.
Daddy ordered Bak Kut Teh for us while your Sister thrive on her milk, refusing to take the rice and all maybe due to her bad cold and blocked nose, I supposed.
After our breakfast, we slowly strolled back to the clinic and waited patiently for our turn.
Finally our turn came and below was what transpired:
Gyn: Hi, what can I do for you?
Mum: We are trying for our Number 2 but have no luck/ news so far and was wondering if you could help us with it etc?Gyn: Sure, but as with all fertility consultations, I will need to find out more information from you. How old are you, Mummy?
Mum: Okay, sure. I am 31 years old while he is 34 years old. Basically, we have been trying for our second child since Dec 11 but there was no news yet. I have monitored using the Ovulation Predictor Kit (OPK) diligently and identified the Luteinizing Hormone (LH) Surge and then proceeded to carry out our activity but there was no news yet. I have the PCOS giving me irregular menses but that has regularised after the birth of our first child but when we started on our trying to conceive (TTC) journey, the menstrual cycle turned haywire again.
Gyn: Okay, but for your first child, was she conceived naturally and how long did it take you both to conceive her?
Mum: Actually it was quite fast, I would say within half a year or so and she was conceived naturally.
Gyn: Okay, then Daddy, I assume that you are a healthy Male. Do you smoke or drink etc?
Dad: No, I do not smoke nor drink.
Gyn: Okay. Then in that case, maybe we can scan Mummy first before we discuss further?
Mum: Okay, but would you be doing the tummy ultrasound of vaginal scan (V Scan)?
Gyn: I will be doing the V scan, it is clearer.
Mummy then proceed to the chair besides the ultrasound machine while Daddy carried your Sister and stood nearby.
Gyn: See, Mummy, those black patches on the screen, they are signs of PCOS.
Mum: Okay, so is there any maturing follicle?
Gyn: There is one here, but measures only 14.5mm. It is not considered as mature yet.
Mum: So, what would be considered as a mature follicle?
Gyn: Usually the minimum is 18mm, so give it 2 to 3 days time, it should grow and mature.
With that and some other scan on the uterues and the lining (7mm), the ultrasound scan ended and we all moved back to the consultation area.
Mum: So, if the follicle were to mature, can we have the HCG jab to trigger the release of the egg, i.e ovulation?
Gyn: Yes, we can but considering that this is Cycle Day (CD) 24 and the follicle is not mature yet, the quality may not be good.
Mum: (thinking that true, as in for a normal 28 day cycle, the menses should report within the next 4 days and ovulation is long over for this group of ladies with normal cycle but for Mummy here, the follicle is not even considered as mature yet) But for our first child, my last menses was somewhere in Dec 08 and we found out that we were pregnant with her around Mar 09, so that would mean that the follicle had also been inside for quite some time and the egg was fertilized too, so this current follicle at CD 24 may not be bad after all right? If the egg is not ovulated soon, you may have to consider giving up this cycle.
Gyn: Maybe your girl belongs to a fresh batch of follicles, that is why.
Mum: (puzzled but gathered that she may have a tiny bit of inkling on what the Gyn was talking about, did not discuss further on this issue) So, by when should the ovulation be so as to render this cycle still okay?Gyn: (counting on the table calendar) By this Saturday or Sunday, it should be ovulated as by then, you will be at CD 26 or CD 27 already.
Mum: Okay, so if the follicle is mature then, can we have the HCG shot to trigger ovulation?
Gyn: That can be done but the follicle needs to mature first. Let me see, so you will come back on 21 Jul 12, Saturday for a scanning and we will discuss further.
Mum: Okay, but in the event that if this cycle does not work out, what are our options?
Gyn: I can put you on clomid, which will help mature the eggs.
Mum: But I read online that there are side effects of clomid, increase risk of cancer and also that there is a maximum number of times that one can take clomid. Plus, it tends to thin out the uterine lining right? My uterine lining is not thick now and as per what my TCM Doctor said, with my light menses flow, the uterine lining may not be thick enough to support implantation, so if I were to take clomid, it may solve one problem but end up creating another.
Gyn: Do you trust online stuffs? But Clomid does tend to thin out the lining. However, we can put you on another medication in conjunction with Clomid to work on the thinning uterine lining caused by Clomid. But that can be discussed later. In the meanwhile, we can schedule another ultrasound scan for your this coming Saturday and we will see how.
Mum: Okay, Thanks.
With that, the nurse proceeded to set us another appointment on 21 Jul 12, Saturday for a scanning. As the appointments are full, she set me in as a walk-in customer and advised that I arrive at around 12 noon this coming Saturday.
After settling the appointment, Daddy made payment for the bill and we left the clinic.
Time flies... It is now July 12...
Time flies.. And they fly by without anyone noticing... Another life lesson that Mummy can teach you...
Like the wait for you to show up in our lives, it is still on -going and unknowingly, more than half a year had passed and you are not with us yet.. How nice would it be if we are able to meet each other next year.. Mummy is feeling so wistful now..
Hey, why not we set a meeting date? Ya try to pop first half of next year? So working back, assuming that I will pop in May 13, you should be inside my cosy womb in Sep 12? Let's try to work on earlier dates and if all else fails, latest would be to hear from you via the trusty HPT in Sep 12?
In the meanwhile, I will continue with my TCM Accupuncture sessions to try to up our chance of meeting and I will have Daddy work harder too to build up his health and all. After all, we only want the best for you, just like what we wish for and gave to your Sister. Only the best..
Like the wait for you to show up in our lives, it is still on -going and unknowingly, more than half a year had passed and you are not with us yet.. How nice would it be if we are able to meet each other next year.. Mummy is feeling so wistful now..
Hey, why not we set a meeting date? Ya try to pop first half of next year? So working back, assuming that I will pop in May 13, you should be inside my cosy womb in Sep 12? Let's try to work on earlier dates and if all else fails, latest would be to hear from you via the trusty HPT in Sep 12?
In the meanwhile, I will continue with my TCM Accupuncture sessions to try to up our chance of meeting and I will have Daddy work harder too to build up his health and all. After all, we only want the best for you, just like what we wish for and gave to your Sister. Only the best..
Tremendous stress with company event.. Not worth the loss of another precious cycle
For the month of Jun 12, the ovulation did occur albeit after a series of TCM Accupuncture for which we grabbed at the chance as usual.
The 2WW ended on 25 Jun 12, Monday when I spotted followed by the full menstrual flow on 26 Jun 12, Tuesday. Another sad day which my tears fell as if there is no tomorrow. I blamed Everything for this loss of yet another chance.
I must say that the days leading up to the Ovulation (10 Jun 12, Sunday) was very stressful for both your father and myself. This is because we were actually preparing for our exams on that very day itself and had been burning the midnight oil diligently for the past week. To add on, there were some changes in my work and I was being tasked to organise and manage a company-wide event practically all by myself. ='(
There was a committee set up by sadly, not all were keen to help. For the very few who were keen and willing to help, I am always thankful. Basically, I was running the whole show on my own, looking after all the nitty-gritty to the bigger items ALL BY MYSELF! Imagine my frustration! Your Dad totally understands the amount of stress that I was going through to the extent that I will find myself waking up in the dead of the night, setting reminders on what needs to be followed on etc.
It does not help that there were some issues encountered with the venue etc which brought along with it tremendous amount of stress. It was a difficult time and I am really thankful for the help given by your Dad. Can you believe that our family (your Dad, me and your sister) spent our weekends walking up and down the same shopping mall for a whole 9 hours on 16 Jun 12, Saturday sourcing for the gift items? Another 6+ hours of our personal time was wasted again on 17 Jun 12, Sunday and after buying all those stuffs, we rushed over to your Grandpa's place to have dinner together for Father's Day.
Your sister had great fun walking around our table and pulling out all the toys in her small little bag that she brought along. =) That was quality family time and fun, unlike the prelude.
The 2WW came and went fast, in between I did testing with the HPT but all turned out negative. However, on a Friday (either 15 Jun 12 or 22 Jun 12) itself, I found a spark of hope in the form of a speck of blood, fondly assumed to be implantation bleeding.
This brings me renewed hope and I really really really believe that we will be seeing you on the HPT and soon to come, a little flicker on the ultrasound screen representing your cute heartbeat, the growth of my tummy on a daily basis and the kicks and somersaults that will follow as well as welcoming you in our secure arms in Mar 13. =)
No words can describe my Joy on that day! =) I am confident and feeling all the positive vibes! Sore boobs and all that I experienced when I found out that I was carrying your sister back then! Even though in between the speck of blood, all the HPT showed up negative but I have a good feel that you were there.
However, my world came crashing on 25 Jun 12, Monday when more specks of blood was detected on 25 Jun 12, Monday, I was worried, very worried in fact. I was wondering what was happening? My menstrual cycle is due to start this week (with my luteal phase of 16 days) and I am not welcoming this blood now!!
The full flow came in the middle of the night on 26 Jun 12, Tuesday and for the days that followed, my mood index fell with no end in sight. But the event is scheduled on 29 Jun 12, Friday, I have no choice but to still put up a brave front and ensure that Everything runs the way they should be, as best as I can.
Your Dad took half day leave and we met up for lunch before popping back to Mummy's office to pick up the presents and your Sister. Your Dad helped me out over at the event while I busied myself with the nitty-gritty and tying up the loose ends. It was a busy busy night as if we are some sort of wedding planners etc. Your sister? She busied herself with her cookies and running around the place unbridled and not looked after/ over by anyone. To this date, I still feel so bad over this. Imagine, what if we had lost her on that night, it would be totally not worth it and I would never forgive myself and my strong sense of responsibility towards the undeserving work.
As it was a Company event, your Dad and Sister then went back to the carpark and stayed inside the car, waiting for your Mummy patiently till the event ends..
I am grateful for their love and patience towards me and it feels so warm and good to be able to return to a deserving family who really really should be getting 100% of me and my attention and not that work assignment that is assigned. The feel is that no one is appreciative and does not really see the huge effort that our family had placed in the event. It was a company project and the manpower that helps make this event happen came from our family, devoted to making it work for the hundreds of them.
Life is just so unfair. My little baby, that is what I can tell you, but please, please, never lose hope for the world will be a better place with you around. Welcome to our family, we will shower you with the respect, boundless love and patience that we accord to each other in our family and You are one of Us. =)
The 2WW ended on 25 Jun 12, Monday when I spotted followed by the full menstrual flow on 26 Jun 12, Tuesday. Another sad day which my tears fell as if there is no tomorrow. I blamed Everything for this loss of yet another chance.
I must say that the days leading up to the Ovulation (10 Jun 12, Sunday) was very stressful for both your father and myself. This is because we were actually preparing for our exams on that very day itself and had been burning the midnight oil diligently for the past week. To add on, there were some changes in my work and I was being tasked to organise and manage a company-wide event practically all by myself. ='(
There was a committee set up by sadly, not all were keen to help. For the very few who were keen and willing to help, I am always thankful. Basically, I was running the whole show on my own, looking after all the nitty-gritty to the bigger items ALL BY MYSELF! Imagine my frustration! Your Dad totally understands the amount of stress that I was going through to the extent that I will find myself waking up in the dead of the night, setting reminders on what needs to be followed on etc.
It does not help that there were some issues encountered with the venue etc which brought along with it tremendous amount of stress. It was a difficult time and I am really thankful for the help given by your Dad. Can you believe that our family (your Dad, me and your sister) spent our weekends walking up and down the same shopping mall for a whole 9 hours on 16 Jun 12, Saturday sourcing for the gift items? Another 6+ hours of our personal time was wasted again on 17 Jun 12, Sunday and after buying all those stuffs, we rushed over to your Grandpa's place to have dinner together for Father's Day.
Your sister had great fun walking around our table and pulling out all the toys in her small little bag that she brought along. =) That was quality family time and fun, unlike the prelude.
The 2WW came and went fast, in between I did testing with the HPT but all turned out negative. However, on a Friday (either 15 Jun 12 or 22 Jun 12) itself, I found a spark of hope in the form of a speck of blood, fondly assumed to be implantation bleeding.
This brings me renewed hope and I really really really believe that we will be seeing you on the HPT and soon to come, a little flicker on the ultrasound screen representing your cute heartbeat, the growth of my tummy on a daily basis and the kicks and somersaults that will follow as well as welcoming you in our secure arms in Mar 13. =)
No words can describe my Joy on that day! =) I am confident and feeling all the positive vibes! Sore boobs and all that I experienced when I found out that I was carrying your sister back then! Even though in between the speck of blood, all the HPT showed up negative but I have a good feel that you were there.
However, my world came crashing on 25 Jun 12, Monday when more specks of blood was detected on 25 Jun 12, Monday, I was worried, very worried in fact. I was wondering what was happening? My menstrual cycle is due to start this week (with my luteal phase of 16 days) and I am not welcoming this blood now!!
The full flow came in the middle of the night on 26 Jun 12, Tuesday and for the days that followed, my mood index fell with no end in sight. But the event is scheduled on 29 Jun 12, Friday, I have no choice but to still put up a brave front and ensure that Everything runs the way they should be, as best as I can.
Your Dad took half day leave and we met up for lunch before popping back to Mummy's office to pick up the presents and your Sister. Your Dad helped me out over at the event while I busied myself with the nitty-gritty and tying up the loose ends. It was a busy busy night as if we are some sort of wedding planners etc. Your sister? She busied herself with her cookies and running around the place unbridled and not looked after/ over by anyone. To this date, I still feel so bad over this. Imagine, what if we had lost her on that night, it would be totally not worth it and I would never forgive myself and my strong sense of responsibility towards the undeserving work.
As it was a Company event, your Dad and Sister then went back to the carpark and stayed inside the car, waiting for your Mummy patiently till the event ends..
I am grateful for their love and patience towards me and it feels so warm and good to be able to return to a deserving family who really really should be getting 100% of me and my attention and not that work assignment that is assigned. The feel is that no one is appreciative and does not really see the huge effort that our family had placed in the event. It was a company project and the manpower that helps make this event happen came from our family, devoted to making it work for the hundreds of them.
Life is just so unfair. My little baby, that is what I can tell you, but please, please, never lose hope for the world will be a better place with you around. Welcome to our family, we will shower you with the respect, boundless love and patience that we accord to each other in our family and You are one of Us. =)
A fresh cycle... from 26 Apr 12
As mentioned, what followed the very first 2WW in the attempt to conceive you ended up in red. We failed.
The flow came in on Apr 12 and lasted the usual 3 days and ended in May 12. Looking forward to the next cycle when we can try for you again.
The flow came in on Apr 12 and lasted the usual 3 days and ended in May 12. Looking forward to the next cycle when we can try for you again.
The Trying... Apr 12
Finally! The time is ripe to have a second child and as I really wanted a dragon baby badly and yet do not wish to have you compete with the other dragon baby in the year (thereby causing un-needed stress to both yourself and us), I have decided on the perfect timing!
That timing will be in Jan 13 as you will still be the soaring Dragon Baby (for better luck and all, hopefully) and yet can skip all the tough competition with the other Dragon Babies! Such a perfect plan!
I have much hopes in conceiving you as my cycle had regularised after giving birth to your elder sister. To be truthful, I have the Polycystic Ovaries Symptom (PCOS). This is generally a common problem as with most females. PCOS may then cause irregular menstrual cycle etc, thereby making conception hard to plan for as well as to predict.
However, with the regularising of the menstrual cycle, my confidence in conceiving you grew a little every day!
Finally, the time has arrived for us to try for you in Apr 12 (plus another 9 months down the road, you will be born in Jan 13, the perfect plan!) but alas, I am saddened to say that the cycle had gone haywire since Dec 11 with my last menstrual cycle arriving in Jan 12 and none after.
This sad fact dealt a heavy blow to me and imagine this, I have been missing my cycle and thus, missing the ovulation (the precious egg that will make half of you when united with your father's sperm) that would have given you a beginning!
The cycle for Feb 12 and Mar 12 had been missing and with that 2 precious chances were lost. In order to mitigate the loss and also to make sure all is a-okay, I then consulted and signed up for yet another Traditional Chinese Medicine a.k.a TCM Accupuncture costing me $900 (for 10 sessions) in the hope of being given a chance to bring you into this beautiful world and into our perfect lives!
After the first session of accupuncture and me a.k.a your Mom, diligently taking the horrible tasting TCM for a week, the ovulation was really triggered a week after I finished the TCM. A bit late in the effect, I would say but hey, late is better than never, so try we did!
After the trying in Apr 12, the next day mark the start of our 2 weeks wait. Basically, during the 2 weeks wait (2WW), we will wait patiently for your father's contribution to meet and unite with my half and then for you to form into morula, blastocyst etc as you travel down the fallopian tube to wriggle into the uterine lining and there, you will stay for the next 9 months where I will then provide you with the warmth and nutrients while in return, you will bring me endless joys with your kicking and hiccups etc as you play, learn and grow inside Mummy's womb.
Looking forward to the end of the 2WW to know the results. But knowing your parents, we will not be able to wait out the 2WW in peace but rather, we are testing Mummy's urine every other day to detect the hcg that will come along and be in the urine when you have comfortably nestled in the uterine lining.
However, 2WW came and went. What followed was not you but a fresh cycle, with the menstrual blood flowing, signalling the end of the egg and the shedding of the carefully built up lining to welcome a new life.
We are not giving up and Mummy is still going for TCM Accupuncture in the hope to regularise my menstrual cycle and in the meanwhile, looking forward to seeing you tell us of your existence through the Home Pregnancy Test Kit (HPT) soon.
The Beginning...
Let me tell you a little bit from the beginning.
I had given birth to your lovely elder sister in Year 09 via emergency c-sect due to no/ slow dilation.
As it was a c-sect and I am a first time Mom, I had decided to steer clear of another pregnancy within a year in order for the wound to heal, so that the next time I am pregnant again, both of us can be assured of a fresh start.
I believe that this is the best for us and what is within my means to give to you.
I had given birth to your lovely elder sister in Year 09 via emergency c-sect due to no/ slow dilation.
As it was a c-sect and I am a first time Mom, I had decided to steer clear of another pregnancy within a year in order for the wound to heal, so that the next time I am pregnant again, both of us can be assured of a fresh start.
I believe that this is the best for us and what is within my means to give to you.
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